I cry aloud to the LORD; I plead aloud to the LORD for mercy. I pour out my complaint before Him; I reveal my trouble to Him. Although my spirit is weak within me, You know my way.
Psalm 142:1-3 (Holman Christian Standard Bible)
Dearest Well Beloved Abba, Father, Forgive me for murmuring against You. Forgive me for uttering bad words against You out of my frustrations. Sometimes I feel that I am forsaken by you. You have left me to be despised of men. I cannot go on this mediocrity. I see no sign that I belong to You, King of kings , Lord of lords. If You live within me , Why, Yahweh , I feel so inadequate and powerless? Lord God, you are everything to me. my Savior.. Without you, Where would I go ? You are the reason for my existence. Please have mercy on me and change me. Don’t turn your face away from me. Without You, I cannot live on this earth even for a moment. You are good, O Lord, and you are always ready to forgive. Thank you for your plentiful mercy in my life which I always receive when I call upon you. You are always there to help me; therefore, I will never be confounded. I know that you will never let me be ashamed. You truly are a very present help to me, and I am receiving your help even now as I pray. Thank you, Father. You are my refuge and strength, and because this is true, I will not fear anything or anyone. You are in my midst, and I will not be moved. You are always there to help me speedily. You are with me, Lord. Knowing this, I will be still. I know that you are my God. Thank you for your constant help in my life, Lord. In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen.